A long time ago (in another life, it seems) some of my friends told me that I had the ability to be away for so long, yet when we meet – make it seem like we were never apart. I’m hoping I can pull that off right here and you wouldn’t have to notice how long I was away (I’m sorry about it). So lets just get right into it with a hug, shall we?
That felt good, yes? 😀 Now to other matters…
So much has been going on!! I wanted to blog about them but somehow didn’t have the motivation, which is sad, really. I was in the downers for waaaaay too long, and I think it happened because I was over thinking everything a little too much.
I’m a Melancholic, see? I would argue that I’m probably just about 50% but doing that may emphasize the fact, so I’ll just drop it there :)! Because I’m very introspective, analytical and logical there is so much I want to talk about, but because every detail is important to me I get lost in them and lose sight of the bigger picture, ending up like this:
So instead of giving you guys the inside scoop of what’s been happening, I’ve actually been weighed down by A LOT of thinking. Thinking about situations that I probably could have changed but felt too
hopeless helpless to change and thinking about situations that couldn’t be changed at all! I held on to past events and constantly replayed them in my head, wondering if things would’ve been better if I just did this or didn’t do that… torture, really.
Anyhow, I suddenly started feeling lighter on the 1st of this month, and yesterday (yup, yesterday) I felt better. Much better. Excellent in fact! I was like:
Great right? I feel so alive today, I thought I should share!
I should go into all the things I’ve learned during this phase – which were things I already knew before but needed reminding – but I won’t, for now (We don’t want someone over analyzing issues too soon, do we?). I’m just glad to be alive, healthy and happy. For now these three are enough!
If you have any ideas how I can keep up with this new me (which I’m enjoying) please feel free to share :). See you real soon!